Getting cocky

Being superficial is really who i am...Seriously...i can't imagine myself dating a girl whom no one thinks is pretty..well...yes thats who i am...you might think i am fusk up...well you can put it that way...

Did someone mention about love is blind? well...i don't really know about that...but...i kinda think i need her to be presentable...yes yes i am shallow...and superficial...everything that a jerk has...is all within me...so what? i am happy being who i am. ditch me if you think i am not good enough.

Its like...If you are going to be upset over a girl...let it be a pretty girl...if a girl is going to leave you for another guy...at least let the girl be a pretty girl...its life! or its my life!...

Anyway having dated alex...(girl) I think my life is pretty much screwed! now i have the mentality that no girls i date will be better than that! And that cause you to lose interest in almost every kinda thing! I don't even think of bedding sharon anymore. not that she isn't sexy...but i just lose interest...and not that i am comparing sharon with alex..(girl) its just different.. never really had a overseas girlfriend before.

Its not the kinda been there done that feeling...its more of like been there...wanna stay there kinda thing...and seriously...this mentality of nothing else can be better than what i had expexrience is probably gonna prove to be my downfall as i will be too cocky to start dating and..probably not get laid for the next few more years...Hope i don't resort to prostituitions...well i don't think so...but...damn...that day better not come...or i will be a really sad man/boy...


Oh yah..saw a chinese/malay guy with a relaly pretty caucasian girl today while waiting for the train...it brings memories back..and somehow i think its better for me to forget so i can probably move on...well..did saw couple of other pretty girls while waiting for train too..