Feelings development

just watched pirates of the caribbean and.....i have totally nothing ot comment on it.. if you want to know if the movie is worth your time...i wouldn't know...i ain't a vittun critic....and i won't give you my opinion cause i don't really like to influence others....ultimately...i didnt ask you to watch the movie just because i think its nice and everyone should watch it! I did not influence anyone!

Okie now i am going to say what i really wanna say...that is i watched movie with the sisters and....friends....jerry and brenz...(bin)..but the main thing is...damn..i felt something when i was sitting beside alex...its like...something...either i got too tired and cause me to not think straight or....i really did felt something...chemistry is developing and thats really really bad...what if she totally shun me when i starts to develope feeling...oh anyway alex is a girl...i ain't developing that kinda reaction...its a straigh reaction althought i said i wasn't thinking straight...but damn it...you know what i mean..

BAck to the story...i was sitting beside her...with the both of us...erm...leaning our side...my left her right...its like our face was pretty close..but not that close till its touching...okie it not really that close...but...i suddenly feel a sign within me saying...turn your head away from the screen and kiss her....Its not becos the movie isnt nice...and again i didn't said the movie suck nor said it is nice...did not influence anyone...

So the feeling or sign was really strong...but...there is kinda like a counter feeling telling me..if i were to do that...i would end up like those other horny guys...who just know them so they could sleep with them...but thats not me..i mean i am like that to other girls...but not these girls...they are like a friend to me...what the vittu am i feeling? damn it...vittu! oh i really got use to the hang of saying vittu instead of fusk...its pretty cool..but thats not the point...the point is...is the friendshiop going to end because of my moment of folly? erm...who knows...i ain't god...even buffet can't predict the future..

So so...i shall not do anything and remain as friends til...they leave for finland and i presume by then the feeling would be gone...oh...one more thing that is holding me back is...she so much taller than me..plus..she once said...the she will never go out with a guy shorter than her..it will make her look weird...so...yes i am a dawrf...and i can't date finland girls cause they are taller than me...vitt!

So so so so so so so so so so so....i will just end here nothing much to talk about...kate where are you and there is a girl name cassandra phua at my work place whom i think has her own attractive side too...