operation rejection

I think I somehow got rejected by a girl...which is something that doesn't happen very often...now dont get me wrong...its not because i am drop dead goodlooking its just that i don't normally ask girls out on a date...thus..well i don't get rejected...

No action no rejection...well i finally manage to get the girls number from my class...and manage to ask her out on a date to sentosa...but...well..deep down i was quite skeptical about the fact that she really wanted to go out with me...but then again...since she agrees to it...i am cool with it...

BUT to me awesome depressing start of the day...she messaged me saying she can't make it...and well the reason she gave sound pretty much like an excuses of nothing wanting to go yet she didn't know how to break the news to me...oh well...what can i say...i have been rejected..

This somehow leads me into thinking...that i have always give up when i hit the wall...especially with girls...i mean...the message is kinda obvious saying.."actually i don't really want to go out with you hope you can stop bothering me" well yah thats what i read from it..

Maybe i am just pure sensitive...but i ain't kidding when i was just about to give it up...i mean..well i don't really wanna be an irritant and not get the hint...then it struck me...if i am always going to back out and not be an super irritating guy....how am i suppose to prove that i am sincere in being friends with her? ok maybe not just friends....just closer than friends...not physically but relationship wise..

I also realised that whenever i fantasy about this very girl being my girlfriend...and the both of us having fun and doing things thats normally done by couples..she end up...not being my girlfriend...

Thus i am really beginning to worry....its like last night before i sleep or probably during my sleep i swear i was dreaming having a good time with her at the beach....and this morning when i woke up...bam! there goes the depressing message! DAMN it...why is this sad sad truth accompanied by YANG ZHONG WEI 's song of xin bu liao qing?

SO to end it all i decided to no give up...and proceed to operation ask her out the second time...maybe after the second failure then i will give it up