Whole loads of Bull Crap

Full load of bullcrap again!!!! She said she felt heartpain that she knows i am suffering but yet still pretend that nothing is happening...YES i am suffering and i am feeling whole lots of pain...but what she gonna do about it?

She is still going to be attached...she is still going to continue pleasing his bf..she is still continuing getting closer and more intimate with the bf...what would she do?

Whole loads of bull crap....what she takes me for? An idiot? Someone who would just be smitten all over again and not feel anything?

Someone who would just apologize and try harder and treat it as nothing has happen and be happy that she will only continue get closer and more intimate with the bf and eventually having sex? I am suppose to be happy when i know their relationship is getting strong?

In mere a week or so...they gone from light to heavy petting...from touching of the outer layer of the pussy to fingering and from not touching his dick to stroking it and masturbating him....

And she wants me to just continue loving her and not leave her....sure i will promise that...i will continue seeing she and her bf get better by the day...Why wouldnt i want that? Its rather enjoyable...isnt it?

She is such a fucking hypocrite!! Getting emotional and upset and heart pain because she knows that i am in pain. And what the fuck is she going to do about it? Nothing...She is still going to be with her bf...she is still going to go further with her bf...she is still going to plan for more activities with her bf...man...i fucking hate her now...

What the Fuck does she wants of me! what the fuck!!!

Why i am suffering like this? Why do i have to fall in love...why do i have to stick to someone to dont enjoy being with but pretend i am just because someone else would feel guilty over it.

Just take my life...dont let me suffer anymore...

Let me be numb....let me have no feelings...