I need my life back

AM i being too possesive?...now i kinda think i might be the one having problems and putting too much pressure...gosh...what is wrong with me..this is not right..i shouldn't be behaving this way...i mean...i am paraniod and utterly possesive...damn...whats the fusk is wrong with me...

I need my life back god damn it..i hate myself for being too pushy...yucks! i meaqn i hate girls for being too pushy..and why am i being pushy myself? damn! this is so not right...okie...probably need some life altering experience to get my old life back..where i will have fun with all my army friends..and go clubing go beach..and do all the fusk sh!t with my friends..and not staying at home pondering over questions like why didn't alex reply my message...gosh..this is so not right...it seems like i am pretty self obessess...erm...

But to be honest with myself i doubt i can move on just with a snap of my little fingers..its pretty much impossible for that kinda thing to happen...yap...i need time..and probably a new relationship...no joke...the best way to recover from a heartbreak would be to start a new relationship..fall some some other girls and then..well you will someone forget about the previous one...thats how things is...or thats who life works..

Its not really like treating the new girl like a replacement or anything like that...i mean if you truely fall in love with her..and she actually make you forget about the previous girl..then..i don't think she is just a replacement...she will be more of a ...erm.. girl you fall in love with..and i am talking about real feeling not some physical feelings...of course..the physcial part is part of the whole package but..what more importantly..is...the feelings...i mean..the physcial part doesn't help you forget about your ex-gf...its the brand new feelings you acquire that helps...

I mean if physcial stuff does help....i wouldn't be feeling upset right now...i could have solve my problems long ago...so its not really about the 3 letter word..its about the 4 letter word...the one beginning with the word F...yes yes..its that word you don't have to doubt your own intuition...its gotta be that word thats in your mind! the word that will make you happy...change your life...and brings a smile to your face when you sleep...

So do we all have the same word in your mind right now? of course we have..its none other than the word FEEL. If you feel for someone...it will bring sunshine to your life and install a permanent smile onto your face everynight when you got to bed. so people the only way to forget about unhappy stuff is to have the 4 letter word begining with F.

Oh...just to add something...theres another 4 letter word beginning with the letter F would also probably makes one happy...and yes you got it...its the word Food. jaana!