The new begining

This is a new chapter of my life...First i cut my hair...super short...well okie still longer as compared to army days...but...then short..not to mention having a tail at the back of my head...well the hairdresser decided to not cut and leave me a tail hair...or whetever you call that..

Second i stop working..and now i would call myself useless and liability to the society...i have totally nothing to do..besides playing games watching movies...at home and tv programs..not to mention also listening to some of the new musics...from youtube...

Now now...how boring can one life get...I seriously can't wait for school to start so i could actually have reason to get out of my house and...well..at least meet up with friends do something with my slowly aging life...i can't be staying home and waiting for death...thats not me..!! i am a guy who needs to work and work...i need thitngs to do..challenging things not routine mundane stuff like stapling papers!!

I would LOVE to make decisions for a company...anyway...yesterday alex and i..well we kinda have a little talk...about us...okie maybe we didn't...its only me having the conversationw tih her and she just give me replies that are 1 word the most 2 words.

Here is how it goes..i asked her if well...can we still be together...she says yes. That is if i can take it that she isn't going to be online for most of the time and she can't reply any of my sms.

Well i replied with a deffinate yes yesterday...well i was pretty impulse on lost of other stuff yesterday...so..yes this is one of it...

I mean...i am not being sensitive or anything like that...but...erm...we were communicating on msn like how sharon and i will communicate on msn NOW. Which means its not a conversation between a couple...or whetever you call it...its more of a conversation with you not so close friends...to simplify it...its conversation with your distant friends. i am not calling sharon my distant friend...but..well actually yes she is quite distant...but its really more of how i will message to my ex instead of my gf.

I seriously still have feelings..i think...but i can't feel any from her part...okie i am not piss...i just thought i kinda get more excited seeing jenna online than her...thats how weird it is....and to further clarify its not that i have feeligns for jenna...but its just that..at least jenna and i are having normal friends conversation...as compared to quite or close to not talking at all conversation with alex whom is suppose to be my "gf".

NOw i am not biatching about the fact that i should move and and blah blah blah like what i did in my previuos few post... i just think alex have fall into the catergory of friends that you will not deffinately talk to even when you see her online..whereelse jenna would be under the catergory of you would want to talk to even she is not online! thats how it is...

And damn! i bought papers but i still have not start with my cards damn it! thats so sad!