The one...

I think i have seriously found another goal in life. I recently get to know this girl online and boy oh boy...isn't she mesmerizing...i mean even my best friend said she is my kinda girl..she is smart, short hair has this rather down to earth look...but she certainly has the X-factor with her...man...her aura is so overwhelming that i am instantly in love with her...

no joke...she is the one...how would i know? simple...no other girls come to your mind...its like you don't even feel like messaging any other girls...or make any new girl friends online...i just wanna concentrate all my juices i mean...brain juices in impressing her...

before i go to bed i will think about her...and when i am sleeping i will definately dream about her...(not the dirty type)...and when i listen to nice love songs...i wish i could sing it to her...damn!! thats how deeply in love i am right now...

no other girls can ever capture my eyes right now...unless she is certainly prettier....NO!!!! i should be a flirt...she is the one..

But there is couple of downside to this relationship...first well...she is kinda younger than me....i mean by lots...but above the legal age....second..well...she looks like those type of girls who would prefer a JC sunshine BOY..

those kinda guys with broad shoulders, tall and short spiky hair and probably in some school team...maybe basketball or some watersports club.

The thing is i am none of the above mention....i have never been in any school team and worst of all i am never good in sport...damn!! this is going to be a tough battle for me to conquer....but i will not give up..

SHe has to be the one for me...deffinately...well i hope so...erm....now i am feeling rather skeptical....she might not be the one....well....erm...

NOOO!!! she is the one right now at this point in time!! Althought she is rather cold towards me...i will try to fire up all my cylinders and heat up the conversation between us.

damn i need a car right now to impress her and probably drives her around...and i think i seriously ain't interested in doing the whole routine of being her friend first and then slowly getting her to like me from there...

i think i am tired of routines like that!! i shall cut to the chase and ask her out for a date...yeah thats what i am gonna do...vittu the be a friend tactic...its too ancient...i shall begin the new year with a brand new tactic...

its all get straight to the point and cut all the unnecessary bullsh!t routine...its kinda like cost cutting making a firm for efficient.. even GM is cutting cost...its like the in-thing right now...co i shall cut down on time wasted on "being friend"

Being yourself not!!!

I am so sick and tired of people keep asking me to just be myself~!!! they just don't understand...whats being yourself when no one likes you being yourself?

Thats why people need to change and be better...its not always being the ownself...deep down i am a introvert...but that will NEVER make me anyone that could survive in this society...so..should i still be myself and be the shy and quiet guy that i use to be? NO!!

I need to change and thats where i have to stop being my ownself and change to another person...it might not be a better person but it will be a person where people would probably prefer than a quiet and shy guy.

so stop saying things like be your own self...it doesn't work that way..life is not that simple that by being your ownself everything will be fine!

The guy up there doesn't really have time to correct everyone's life...so instead of praying and hoping everything goes well...do it yourself..

its all bullsh!t when they say girls like what inside you...yeah right....!! thats what they say to reduce the number of competitors...don't listen to all those hypocrite!!!