The day the heart died!

The day you broke our promise..my heart's dead...

I still remember vividly how it went....you promise that you will meet meet me the next day...and i went home feeling happy and excited..as the thought of seeing you and spending time with you again....is priceless...

The very next day the moment i woke up....the main objective in my mind was to see you that night....i was so focus on seeing you that...no matter what happen i didn't care cause i know at night i would be able to see you again...

I even tried studying in the afternoon because i want to finish doing what i am suppose to do so i can spend more time with you...i went office and finish everything on the desk and even touch on stuff that i left it for quite some time...all due to the fact that i was so happy that i am going to see you at night that...nothing else really matters...

I was so happy that..i don't mind doing stuff that i didn't like doing...that was how happy i am...

I knew you are going to be late....i don't mind waiting till 3am in the morning....i was so tired from all the work...but yet i didn't dare to even close my eyes and fall asleep..the moment i feel like sleeping i will do some exercise or slap myself on the face...just to keep myself awake...and again...ALL these so that when you finally call me i will not miss your call and i will be able to see you again at night..

I even got you a gift...although its nothing expensive nor extravagant but its something i promise i will give it to you...and...i was so eagerly wanting to see whats your expression....can you imagine...someone who bought a gift and spend the entire night waiting for someone he/she likes?...and how depressing it is when that someone fail to even turn up?

This might sound rather dramatic...but it isn't...this is true...i didn't make up any part of these story... When the clock strikes 4am...i knew i ain't going to see you...at the fit of anger...i threw the gift i bought into a corner...

All i want from you was to spend time with me...and all i want was to share my happiness moment with you....and by seeing you would be the happiest moment that could happen to me...none of this is going to change anything now...in fact...like i said the heart i dead...the gift...will probably stay in that corner for years to come and i am guessing you wouldn't need it anymore...

An entire day of hope smashed at an instant...why give me hope? i would probably be better off without it..

The deadliest poison of all!

I swear i have never felt so much pain in my entire life....now i know how my previous girlfriends felt when we broke up...its the feeling of wanting to see the person yet you think that person let you down greatly....damn....its one torturous night....i hope i will never have to go through it again big time...

Thank god i recover almost over the night...through lots of sleep...apparently...i am one who get in and out a relationship pretty fast like lightning...well can be good or bad...not sure...enjoy the process and get out of it when its still fresh!

I guess its retribution for me...all the pain and suffering i cause others are all reciprocate back to me last night...man...i wish i could cry to get rid of the sadness thats inside me...but i can't force it out...i can't sleep cause the gloomy heart wouldn't allow me to....its worst of all..

Tired yet can't sleep....sad yet can't cry....man....love really is a tool to torture puny beings....who the hell invent this stuff! gosh...!

All these pain are cause by betrayal...which is the most powerful tool under the category love...ain't no kidding people...first...they strike you with love...then when you are in in...they cast betrayal over you...damn...then you are doom...the gloomy spirits will haunt and depending on how high your resistant is to sadness...it might cause a deduction of H/P at a constant rate till you are recover...

No potions in the world can cure this curse man....well only the person who cast it can probably relieve the pain...or make it worst!... The only cure would be like i said your ability to forget and probably with another person casting love spell over you...but the first approach would be preferred... if not you will be in a pretty volatile love cycle...which isn't a good thing

Well i just realize its a recurring poison....because out of no where i am feeling the pain again...damn just as i thought i recovered...maybe i need a slightly longer time then i expected...GDI (stands for god damn it)

well CNY is coming so i hope all of you happy falling in love and emerge yourself in a eternity of poison~!

commanding respect

Respect....well its true that one should respect oneself...before commanding respect from others...

Question...between having food and respect which one would you prefer? you can die holding on to your respect or you can lose it...and eat...and of course live...which would be the preferable choice?

Well most would probably say...keep the respect/pride...or whatever you call it...and then you can die...and repay your parents for bringing you up with full or respect bring it with you to the grave...its cool...i mean everyone make different choices....i won't say its wrong..

But losing your "respect" to stay alive...ain't really a bad thing either...at least you know by staying alive for now there is a chance for you to gain that back eventually...unless you are those kind who would lose it and never want it back...but i would say...most people would want respect...

seriously who wants to be look down upon? i would again say no one....and i would say people who THINK they would rather die than lose their respect...are people who are living a rather comfortable life right now...example singapore..

You think your life sucks...(well i always say mine sucks...but its just out of context and well i am just bitching) think again...you living in singapore (talking about avg singaporean here) doesn't have to worry about having food tomorrow....doesn't have to worry about basic necessity day in day out. Thats why you have the time and even effort to bitch and complain how the govt ain't taking good care about your puny life!

If let say..you basic needs ain't even satisfied...would you even think about life upgrading? having more shopping malls? or whether a casino should be build? come on! face it man!

When your daily needs to survive ain't even being met...you wouldn't even think about respect...anything that will probably bring food to your family is a form of respect..anything that would provide you with a better life or your family with a better life is a form of respect.

Now another question...people said..respect isn't for someone who doesn't respect him or herself...lets talk about a hostess (someone who accompany guys to earn money..sex optional)...if she is doing that so that her family doesn't have to suffer...from extreme poverty.. do we still consider her not respecting herself and thus...not have any form of respect for her?

I don't know whats the ans...seriously...i ain't no saint...besides i am sure there are people out there who would counter this idea of mine...with some extremely logical reason...anyway its just a thought.

It might be hard to understand why these people do things like that...well who can blame you...no matter how difficult your life is...you are living in singapore where your needs are more or less satisfied...there is no way you can put yourself in their shoes and understand how they feel...neither could i...thus...i normally wouldn't tell someone "i know how you feel" unless i been through it myself...

Well its just a couple of questions and though...so probably if you have some spare time...do think about it...

P.S. I swear I am not targeting anyone when i typed this...it just happen to inspire me to type a post like that...no offenses to anyone.

ITs over..

A girl full of anticipation to meet you...dress herself up....even wear a specs which looks funny...just to entertain you and make you laugh...so your day would be better....when she reach she saw you...yet you didn't see her....as she approach you from behind, full of excitement and can't wait to see whats your response to her obviously too huge and thick black frame glasses.. yet you turned around with another girl in your arms..

Dejected as she is...just smile at you and walked away...you have no idea what to say to her...although you are rather pissed because she was late....you felt your guilty consciouses running down your spine and the anger just dissipate into the already much saturated air.

Its all over for now....

operation rejection

I think I somehow got rejected by a girl...which is something that doesn't happen very often...now dont get me wrong...its not because i am drop dead goodlooking its just that i don't normally ask girls out on a date...thus..well i don't get rejected...

No action no rejection...well i finally manage to get the girls number from my class...and manage to ask her out on a date to sentosa...but...well..deep down i was quite skeptical about the fact that she really wanted to go out with me...but then again...since she agrees to it...i am cool with it...

BUT to me awesome depressing start of the day...she messaged me saying she can't make it...and well the reason she gave sound pretty much like an excuses of nothing wanting to go yet she didn't know how to break the news to me...oh well...what can i say...i have been rejected..

This somehow leads me into thinking...that i have always give up when i hit the wall...especially with girls...i mean...the message is kinda obvious saying.."actually i don't really want to go out with you hope you can stop bothering me" well yah thats what i read from it..

Maybe i am just pure sensitive...but i ain't kidding when i was just about to give it up...i mean..well i don't really wanna be an irritant and not get the hint...then it struck me...if i am always going to back out and not be an super irritating guy....how am i suppose to prove that i am sincere in being friends with her? ok maybe not just friends....just closer than friends...not physically but relationship wise..

I also realised that whenever i fantasy about this very girl being my girlfriend...and the both of us having fun and doing things thats normally done by couples..she end up...not being my girlfriend...

Thus i am really beginning to worry....its like last night before i sleep or probably during my sleep i swear i was dreaming having a good time with her at the beach....and this morning when i woke up...bam! there goes the depressing message! DAMN it...why is this sad sad truth accompanied by YANG ZHONG WEI 's song of xin bu liao qing?

SO to end it all i decided to no give up...and proceed to operation ask her out the second time...maybe after the second failure then i will give it up

Process really do Matter

You know how people always say..its not the results that matters but the process...well they are screwing you up by saying that...

Things like school results..no one cares if you study or not...so what if you study everyday and by the end of the year...your results isn't as expect it will still do u no good.

Things like money making...no one cares how much effort you put in trying to earn that buck...but when you do not meet the necessary target...then...out you go...see its the results that matter...

Things like these happen everywhere...even in relationships...your partner doesn't care how much effort you put in to please her/him... once it doesn't meet their expectations....you are branded not trying hard enough...come on!! how fair is this?

i can go on and on...and this post will never end...but i wouldn't want that would i...too long of a post will be tough to read.. but i am still going on...cause given not lots of people read all the stuff i type online...i won't be that much of an irritant in terms of percentage..

All these little things are inbuilt into your everyday life....guys do not care..how the process of masturbation is...they only want to achieve the results of firing...yes sure they will fantasy here and there....but simple the end results is what really matters...

Come on no guys would wanna pump themselves so hard and when they are about to shoot they just stop...that would really be torturous foolish too...imagine having cum stuck halfway in your dick...man...i don't even wanna get their..

But luckily there is one thing that...god has created that well..in a way helped counter all this discrepancy in life... Yes yes...you all have guessed it correctly...its the 3 letter word call sex...or some ladies like calling it love making...or scientist call it mating...or sexual intercourse...actually it isn't the name its the process...

This is one truly marvelous creation that allow all mankind to enjoy the process instead of the end result....and thats why i say when someone tells you its the process that matter...he/she is talking about screwing (which is another term for sex).

Now when a couple( I use the word couple cause..well these days...you no longer both male and female to contribute to a sexual act) have sex they truly enjoy the touch of each others skin and smell and everything that belongs on the others body..

Its definitely one mesmerizing moment...imaging kissing your love ones...hugging them...smelling their hair(only apply to guys) licking their...erm....it depends on individual and i shall not go there..and squeezing them tightly..and again it various from individual once again..

Ultimately what i wanna say is that process in this scenario really matters....its the action of pumping in this case that matters...no one likes a guy who would just pull his trigger and shoots the very instant the target appear...well...they prefer the tactical movement around or towards it....hide in the bushes...and slowly crawl in...if you get what i mean...

well...if there ain't no bushes...well...without cover maybe a charge towards the target might be necessary..still it might be deadly...

Trekking up and down the valley might prove to be a tedious task too...especially if its mount everest...however as a guy...i seriously...prefer to work hard climbing mountains...well it kinda give you more achievement...that you conquered it.

besides that...swimming or sailing across the wet river might prove to be treacherous too...however trust me on this guys..you prefer it wet than navigating across the nevada desert where not an ounce of water can be found...dryness is your brother's worst enemy...

I seriously think i am kinda drifting too far off my original topic....well in this case i shall head back...pardon my atrocity all the being single and looking at women with firm butt and nice long legs have been getting me little bit hyper...and since i can't enjoy the process i shall attain the results..

Just to summarize...when someone said process is what matters...the person is outright hinting at something...and depending on the gender of the person...you might considering running away from him if you are a guy.

Commitments!

commitment issues....people normally think of me as someone who aint wanting to commit because well i still wanna play around...i am a flirt...i two time...so on and so forth...

well seriously...i am not a playboy...plus i have no qualities of being one...and its so unfair cause...people think you are those kinda of person yet you didn't even have the decent opportunity to enjoy being a playboy...or whatsoever..

Plus come on...have you people looked at me? if i look like a playboy..i would probably be on deal or no deal hunks edition..I am probably more suitable to be on deal or no deal dork edition...

anyway people don't know me well...why do i breakup? well cause i don't wanna end up like my dad....ruining people's life...not being able to stick to just one bloody woman...

I seriously do not know whats the cause of it...but i am thinking well probably..its because my mum's his first woman...and then they got married...so probably he needs to date more before he finds the right one..

But then again...that might not be the case...being his son..i am so sure i will become just like him...if the problem can be solved by just dating more...pls...i will gladly do that...but i kinda think its not that simple anymore...

It comes down to me starting to think...not being involved in a long term relationship would be the best way to avoid a calamity from happening and becoming a vicious cycle...

When people say i should not be ruining girls life by dating them...its kinda sad...cause i am just like everyone? i just wanna find the right girl...and be with her...i just wanna lead a happy and romantic life...but with the fear inside me...people just don't understand...they think i just like to flirt around and cant commit because i hadn't had enough fun...yet...

seriously...who doesn't wanna lead a happy life? but apparently not everyone can do it...its just sometimes...you ain't able to find the right girl...because you don't really have the urge to wanna spend the rest of you life with her...and to me thats the most important aspect of life...

Actually i thought i found one...but she left me...for her country...well maybe it wasnt meant to be maybe its because i didn't know her well enough thats why i am starting to have illusions..

I am really starting to put hopes into this soulmate theory and it better work out well for me...because i seriously have nothing else to rely on...this is my only hope! finding the GIRL.

Now...i don't know if i am being jealous or what...but deep down i really hate all this JC kids...its like in my blood to really rid them from these face of the country...man..i hate them so much...i can really do some nasty things to them...

I am thinking i really do have this really psychotic side within me...cause...when i think of revenge i really see all these crazy stuff going through my mind....yes i know its crazy...but this anger within me...its like a demon waiting to get out...its scary...but yet...sometimes i feel like releasing this demonic soul within me and let it roam freely...

There are times it almost got out...but well i kinda manage to get it under control...its like he/she has yet to break open the last gate...and i am constantly leaving by the edge...

Having this demon within...is kinda cool at times...because you know what its capable of...and it feels good when you really pissed with someone...and you just cant wait to unleash the demon and let it take over your body completely...

Well i hope i ain't going to jail for all these crap...no worries...demon still within and not getting out anytime soon!

IN school and IN fatuated with a girl in school!

I realise i don't really have any friends in school...well not sure if its a bad thing..i mean...it kinda force me to study...cause i can't really study around friends...well not sure why...but tend to fool around instead of really studying..

WAit then again...i tend to fall asleeep when i am studying alone...damn...i can't study with or without friends...

But who needs more friends when i think i already have the best brathers....i mean...well you people might think its just sour grapes...like i ain't having lots of friends thats why i say i have enough friends and i do not need more....blah blah blah...

Yes i agree people doesn't wanna be my friend and it pissess me off cause i don't really like having no friends to make use of when i am in need....but there are times where i really prefer to be alone like now...unless its my brathers....

There are couple of people whom i dun mind just being with them...even though i am in my "leave me alone mood"....well only a couple of people...but seriously...no point mentioning...becos i dun wanna suck up to them...

Oh by the way...i saw my old army pics...and god bless me! i look so freaking fit...and when i look at myself now...i look like a freaking slob!! whats with this man! just 2 years and i am already out of shape!! this is so not happening to me...(i sound like a blonde)

By the way...i come to realise this girl in my class is kinda pretty...i mean...well she is vietnamese...which i am interested in...not the nationality but.. dating foreigners would always be cool...rather than boring singaporean...

Well she has to be rich since she is studying here...but thats not the main factor...well...actually from the very beginning i found her to be rather appealing..but somehow through the months..i lost interests in her...however these days when i looked at her....I don't sense any lust...well its a good thing cause then i will know...i am into this girl...

She is pretty...smart and...has a good figure...well...probably behave slightly like a boy...but its okie..i mean at least she still dress like a girl...which is the most important aspect...of the hunt..

I am starting to get mesmerizing by her...gosh....everytime i look at her...i just have the urge to disregard the lecturer and stare at her......she is cute...looked chinese...speaks good english...nice B cup boobs...butt probably firm too...and wow...impressive resume...

By the way i think i fall in and out of love easily...which is a good thing that i am falling for her...cause she would be leaving singapore like...around june or july...? it would probably be around that time i start falling out...

Hopefully i can date her before CNY...so well erm...i can have something to look forward to in the year of rat...too bad she is celebrating CNY back in vietnam oh well...if not i could bring her to my brathers gathering and flaunt her...!! i am a show-off yes!

Its sad that every year i bring no one to his house...everyone is attached and yet every CNY i am single! what the hell is this..!! this year has to be different...maybe a social escort would make the difference...but then again i might have to give up on my cash...which isn't something i am willing to part with....so...it would be single for me again this year!

Back to my vietnamese girl from school...i think probably the first thing i would have to do would be to get her number...then would i be able to start smsing her...and then lay traps like how a dad would trap his son in the toilet so that every stroke of canned would be able to hit his target..

First step would be asked for number then! bless me lord...don't let me screw this up...or i would end up screwing other girls...which i am not interested in...! i wanna be pure!

The greatest power of all! LOVE

Falling in love...ain't that the greatest thing that could happen to all mankind...opps..don't wanna be branded sexist....to all homosapiens..

Well when you are falling in love...nothing in the world can make you sad...well probably the death of someone close to you would...or in my case...the stop of cash flowing into my pocket every month from my dad...that will be me very sad...

Anyway my point is...when someone is in love...its the happiest thing that could happen to anyone...seriously...no feeling can replace that...not even...money...well maybe lots of money...but how often do u really get lots of money and i would have to talking about the utility theory which i ain't going to do so...cause i ain't well verse in it...

So conclusion...falling in love...is the best medicine for all injuries except physical...maybe not to those who enjoy the master and slave games....not my kinda soup....

But the worst thing that could happen to anyone would also be falling out of love...it really make sense...by falling in...the happiness that is being produce from the synergy is so great that...the saddess required to break it...or in fact the amount of saddness that is release from it would be of equal stature..

So falling out of love would really kill someone...not physically but it might lead to that eventually if its powerful enough...he greatest dark magic ever roam the earth..

Theoretically it would be possible for one to counter the saddness from falling out of love with falling into love...since it would probably produce enough happiness to counter the amount of saddness being release...but falling in love ain't that easy...its like one of the toughest thing in ones life..

Actually the act of falling in love ain't difficult..its the art of making someone you fell for falling for you that is difficult...in fact its worst than trying to getting money from my dad.

Thus in reality..the theory of countering one with the other wouldn't work if time is to be consider...mainly the frictions..

I would really like to know...if you girlfriend doesn't like you friend would you still hang out with him? or you would totally ostracize him? Well i think i am a victim of that...not that i am require to ostracize any of my friends...just that i think someone is doing that to me just because of a girl!

Well i wouldn't say i am the bestest friend he ever had...but...to totally ditch me for a girl...thats total bullocks man...i mean i have no grudges against the girl except she is a total bitch to have dislike me...Besides that i seriously have no other bad things to say about her...or to hope she will never get married and never be successful in her entire life or to be disfigure whatsoever...i seriously have never though of that...neither would i curse that hair grew all over her body and her armpit hair will be too thick to shaved or her pubic hair will be so bushy she can't wear normal jeans or think she is utterly ugly and i would rather fuck a cow then her...definately...never ever cross my mind.. peace!

Well i think its wrong of this friend to give in to the girl even though well she might be the love of his entire life......still...well who am i to comment about all this piece of shitty love related things..

My favorite part of a relationship that it will always end...and my favorable tenure would be 1 to 2 months...

A really sad story that got me crying...

This is one sad story...

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This guy being in a relationship with this girl for 6 months....realise he couldn't commit to this relationship no longer....He had history of not being to commit to any single relationship for years and to him this one is no different...

But he didn't want to break off with the girl just as problems starts to crop up for her...thus the breaking off is being held back time after time...however it finally came to a point that...its too much for the guy to handle and he decided its really time to break the news to the girl...

He knows there ain't going to be a future in this relationship...well deep down...the guy doesn't really know whats love... he have no idea if he is in love or neither does he knows how is falling in love like. He just know that he ain't going to be like his dad...who left the family for another woman due to commitment problems...

Seeing his mum being depress over that...he totally lose faith in marriage...and knowing he doesn't want to end up like his dad and hurt some other woman...he decides not to get into a long term relationship unless he felt...he is ready to commit....unless he feels the urge to not flirt with another girl...

Somehow he felt it with this girl he knew at the beginning but as time passes the feeling fade like smoke in the air...he started to doubt his ability to commit again...and again...being reminded by his parents relationship...he decides to break up with the girl...

On the day he finally break off with the girl...she couldn't accept the fact that it happen out of the blue...however to the guy...it had already happen long ago.... being mean to the girl was the only thing he could say to get her to accept the fact that the he was a jerk...

However, the girl being so in love with the guy couldn't accept the fact knowing that the guy really wants her to let go...decides to let it go just for the guy.

After the breakup...the guy felt this sense of relieve in the beginning... thinking he made the right decision decides to go party with his friends....but as the night goes deeper...he felt uneasy...flashes back of his relationship starts to surface before him..

Every little things seems to remind him of the girl...simple things like...phrase she used to said...clumsy but cute actions she used to do....every single bit of this resurface like dolphins popping out of the water for air.

At times he even want to tell his friends..stuff like " my girl use to do that too"...but he held back...cause he fear losing his pride in front of his friends as they knew about him breaking up with the girl...and him being rather adamant about breaking up.

Well even thou all these memories flashes before him...he eventually forget about it...and the night just died with the next incoming day...

Everything seems to be fine for the next few days..the constant popping of memories subside..but did not stop completely...bits and pieces still appear before him.

Couple of days have pass by and suddenly the girl called...thinking that they are still friends regardless of the breaking up he picked up the phone. The girl asked him out...in order to pass him some stuff...at first the guy was rather skeptical...as in..thinking the girl might want to return him all the stuff he gave her...

But the girl was rather firm that it wasn't that case and she just wanted to pass him some stuff.. The guy being unsure dragged for a couple of days and finally decides that it wouldn't do him any harm if he would just go down and grab the stuff from her..

The meeting was on a drizzling night and the guy drove down to the girls place to collect the gifts..When they both met..there were bit of awkwardness in the air..but everything seems smooth with the guy accepting the gifts from the girl in a paper bag...not wanting to see what is it in front of the girl only knowing its a book..the guy bid the girl farewell and drove off heading to the office to do some last minute work.

Upon reaching the office...the guy carry on with his work...and after he is done he saw the bag and decides to take it out and starts to read it...

To his surprise, its a book or diary about how the both of them started and things that happened throughout the entire relationship...

Trips they went together as a couple overseas, suppers they had together late nights...all the fun and wonderful happy moments they spent together are all capture in this tiny little black book....

Upon flipping the book seeing all the cute pics of them together..the guy smile...and then started to laugh....and eventually started crying...all the beautiful memories and times they spent together starts to resurface again...this time the memories flew out like birds being set free from cages....he could feel it...as if he is reliving the moment...the entire office seems to have turn into a mini movie theater with moments from their relationship flashes before his eyes through a projector.

The book was prepared by the girl way before the breaking up and the girl wanted to record all the beautiful moments and present it to the guy onces its filled up...with the sudden breakup...the book wasn't complete but knowing there wouldn't going to be anymore lovely memories to be added on...she has no choice but to reluctantly end the book and present the book to the guy earlier.

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The book ended with 2 letters attached to the middle of it where it all finally ends...Letter reads, "Knowing all our happy memories have to finally come to an end at this is very page makes me wanna cry...this would probably be my last gift to you. Hope you will like it...and thanks for being with me, I will always love you...."

The guy couldn't hold back his tears any longer broke down crying....tears dripping on the pages of the book smudging the ink that records their beautiful moments...

He couldn't believe he is making this mistake of ruining this perfect relationship just because he fear not being able to provide the girl with the same commitment his dad failed to give his mum..

He decides to drive down and apologize to the girl....getting into his car...and driving towards the direction of the girl's house...

The slight drizzle turns into a heavy shower by the time the guy got out of the office...as he is driving...the radio was playing the song "Apologize by Timberland feat One Republic"...The song started slowly...and suddenly the tire of the guys car which previously already had a small hole suddenly burst...swerving the car out of its lane and smash into a tree by the road side....

At the moment of impact...the guy was regretting all the things he said to the girl...and the chorus of the song begins, singing.."Its too late to apologize.........its too late......"

With the crash....the guy wasn't being able to even apologize to the girl...that could have been the love of his life......the story ends with the same song that the radio was playing that night....." its too late to apologize....its too late...."

I am not sure if you find it sad...as i kinda stop tearing after i finish typing it...hope you guys can still feel the sadness i am feeling thinking and writing this story....

Well here is another alternate ending for those who prefer the guy not to die...

With the hurt already inflicted upon the girl...its just too late to apologize....the girl has already gave up on the love that once provided her with beautiful memories the moment she presents the book with all of those in it.

(P.S. I ain't the guy)

Andy's seperation theorem

Is it necessary to draw a clear line between work and personal life? now that is a question to be answered...seriously..if your bf caught you talking on the phone with your male colleague even after office hours...should he even have the privilege of flaring up?

Well actually its important not to let your personal life get mixed with up with working life...i mean it helps you stay focus and not get affected by how many times your bf kissed you or wanna have sex with you. (you know girls are pretty particular about every single things their bf do and not do)

So having a clear line is strictly a yes yes...and not a no no. now define office hours... i am thinking its the period where u are in the office or suppose to be in the office or working outside the office but still working...technically its working hours...so if you ain't working...then its consider outside office hours and thus after office hours...and that will be your personal space.

Now...how not to get mixed up between personal and working life...easy...your colleagues are just plain tools of communication while working...thus...when you ain't working...you SHOULDn't even be toying with them...i dun see you hanging out with your computer after work right? like having fun with it...talk to it and stuff like these...well...there are some people who bring their laptop home...but its strictly on a working basis...thus...it can be consider as during office workings...i mean strictly speaking its still part of the WORKING hours...

So if you ain't suppose to mixed with your working tools...after office hours...which is for the benefit of the society( as it lower the amount of bf getting jealous and flare up and causing both of you not being in the mood to work thus lowering productivity and thus lowering GDP causing recession, leading to lower profits and companies increasing prices to cover the profits loss which then lead to inflation...all because of you mixing your god damn work life with your personal life).

So for the god damn benefit of the entire economy...please please please refrain from talking to you colleagues after office hours AND during lunch break...therefore...the optimal productivity would be when no one is gonna have lunch with anyone from the same company during lunch break. Everyone should eat alone and not speak to any colleague when you ain't working. This is the best strategy every company should employ and thus the country.

Why lunch break you ask? easy...its after office hours...and you ain't working...

So enjoy your personal life and continue treating your colleagues as mere tools of communication that helps smoothen the process of working. Cheers to the economy!

Now now after i shit..i realize this theory of mine is incomplete...what if you ain't attached? good question ain't it... well the answer is simple...god damn it get attached..because love is what get the world going...and if there ain't love then..the world ain't going to get moving fast enough and thus it will lead to an even worst outcome...so problem solve...cheers to the economy!

I realized

Sexy girls on the dance floor is like honey to bees...seriously...i was sitting at my table and i saw this two sexy girls...on the dance floor and before i can even blink...wow....guys surround them and...then i lost sight of them in the floods of bees...men...

I mean...i don't think by dancing around girls especially when tons of other guys are doing the same thing will help u get their attention..probably more of getting them dizzy...not that they will pay any attention to you by the way.

And how do u tell that fiona xie's normal accent is fake...well...when she speaking really fast or when she is making a long sentence..you do notice the "american" accent is gone...well thats a sign that her normal accent is kinda fake...realise it from maggie and i.

oh..its been a day or realization..guess what i realise i still have a shot at first class honours! i just have to get 70 for the remaining 4 modules! yeah!!....but i only have 4 months left to study for it..great...70 isn't it easy!! not when the passing grade is 34...damn it...

To be honest...i felt kinda felt happy that i still have a shot at it...but i totally do not have confident in getting 70 for all especially when i haven't touch on my monetary economics since sch starts...wohoo...!

now thats 4 realization...and more to come...

I realise i find it sexy to screw your manager...picture this...you manager..a sexy lady...married women...well don't have to be too sexy...but not those fat ugly blob...anyway...she is your manager...sexy and married..

Then on dinner and dance, she got drunk...and...well not that i am willing to take advantage of her...actually yah...thats the whole point of the story right..so she got drunk...and you brought her home...(save money on hotel)..now thats bloody cheapskate of me...

Oh...bringing her home and screwing her...oh forget to mention that...she is mids 40s...an obvious MILF and she is bloody horny when she is drunk...damn...that makes it ever more exciting...yeah!

This is so getting me turn on man!! oh man...then the next day...bot of you act as nothing has happen...well obvious..she is married and...she is your manager...and..yah the rest of the world cannot know about...now thats like the best part of it man...

Well after the first night..its kinda obvious that she wants it from you every now and then...wow...screwing your boss...try to beat that...one of the fantasy of men..even boys too..

I realise even thou i can watch football matches online..it ain't very stable...i missed arsenal's second goal...bloody hell...damn..it...can't even watch in peace...free stuff really ain't good enough man...